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AuburnChick Visits the Dentist

So, after Chicky’s fabo 18th birthday, I didn’t post on my blog.

Why?

Because I had a little something called a toothache.

No ordinary toothache.

The kind that makes you cry.

Right before Christmas, I lost part of a filling from one tooth.  I didn’t think I needed to do anything, because I didn’t have any pain.

Apparently things changed this weekend.

Ouch!

Why wouldn’t I call the dentist immediately, you might wonder?

Well, because I have this crazy fear of these drill-bearing doctors.

It goes back to childhood.  My mom took my sister and me to our semi-annual cleanings.  I don’t remember her actually threatening bodily harm if cavities were found, but I think she somehow got her message across, because I was always deathly afraid that the dentist would find something wrong.

My record stayed clean until I was 17, when I had two cavities!  My mom made me drive myself back to my appointment (40 minutes away) to get those suckers filled.  I was by myself and deathly afraid.

Fast forward ten+ years to a toothache that resulted in a root canal.

Oh my, but that was a very traumatizing experience.  I couldn’t eat without pain for a couple of weeks.

Added to the physical pain was the financial ouch of a $400 crown during a time when every single penny went to paying monthly bills.

I think you get my point.

For me, going to the dentist is a torture equally as bad as water boarding.

I sucked it up today, girded with a dose of Midol which, by the way, says on the box that it’s good for toothaches, and called.

The office had an opening for 3pm…perfect since I have been subbing regularly.

I called Super Sis who empathized as only a sister can and offered to pray for me.

Then I went.

And I sat.

I cried as the assistant tried to take an x-ray…another reason why I cannot stand the dentist.  My mouth is very small, and I cannot hold the x-ray films between my teeth without getting all gaggy-feeling.

I was mortified that I was losing it over x-rays.  The technician wasn’t lovey-dovey, but she did an amazing thing.  She applied topical anesthesia to my gums so that I wouldn’t feel the film.

It did the trick, and we were able to finish taking photos.

The dentist came in a bit later and declared that I needed a root canal.

Rrrrronnnnkkkkk.

Wrong answer.

I told him so, in pretty much the same words.

I asked if he could pull the tooth, and he said, “Sure, although it might be hard given the location of the tooth beside it…”

The wisdom tooth is the last tooth on the right...laying sideways beside another tooth...the one causing me pain.

After a few shots…yet ANOTHER reason why I don’t like dentists…I was ready.

Now, I have to ask a quick question.

How many of you watched the television series Alias, which starred Jennifer Garner?  It was on in the early 2000’s.

Well, in the first episode, Sydney (Jennifer) gets her teeth removed because she’s caught spying and they are trying to torture her.  The guy approaches her with dental clamps.

Let me tell you…that is the scene I thought of as the Dr. E came at me with his own stuff.

Now, if you’ve been following my blog for any length of time, you know that anything I do is not done the easy way.

Such it was with this tooth extraction.

Apparently my teeth are as stubborn as my emotional state, because the tooth refused to budge.

He decided to break it apart.

Fine with me.  My mouth was numb.  I cared not one iota.

Now, one of the worst sounds ever is that of a drill.  Ugh.

But I was such a trooper, if I do say so myself.  I didn’t cry.  I was numb.  Dr. E was removing the reason why I had spent Saturday curled up into a ball crying in pain.

Even after breaking the tooth, he could not remove it.

Can you believe it?

He tried.  Boy, did he try.

He actually stood up and leaned over me…putting his muscle into the work.

Nada.

That’s when he decided this called for extreme measures.

The wisdom tooth beside it had to go.  Did I mind?

Um, no.  I had the other three extracted almost 15 years ago.  No biggie.  I was numb.  I didn’t care.  Just keep the pain medicine coming, I warned him.

Another shot went in.

I stayed semi-happy.

I’ve never felt so loved…two adults hovering over me…one with an air sucker thing and the other welding all sorts of metal objects.

And all it took was a little toothache.

So, the dentist worked and worked.

The wisdom tooth was proving to be almost as stubborn as the other one, but once he had shaved it down, there was no turning back.

I tried to relax, and I prayed.

Finally, that wisdom tooth came out.  I actually took a picture of it, cause I’m a good blogger, but because I’m a better blogger, I’m not going to post it.  It’s a little icky looking.  But it was HUGE!  Trust me.

Anyhoo, one would think that the other tooth would come out easier now that the obstruction was removed.

Not!

The doctor worked and worked.

I prayed.

And then, finally, one of the roots came out.  He held it up proudly for me to see and explained that the roots of this tooth and the wisdom tooth had gotten tangled around each other…hence the reason why he couldn’t remove one without the other.

I was excited.

One down, one to go.

Stubborn little booger.

A good 15 minutes later, the second root came out, but only after the doctor had to make an incision in my gum.  I didn’t care.  I was numb.

And for the record, yes, I was fully aware that although numb during the procedure, I’d be paying for it later.

I didn’t care.

I was numb.

The doctor sewed me up after he finished removing that second root.  The nurse stuffed my mouth with cotton gauze and sent me on my way with three prescriptions in hand.

I walked out of there paying a little over $100 (a bargain since the crown I’d had for my last root canal cost me an arm and a leg).

On the way home, I picked up Rooster, and we went to CVS to get my meds.  I was lucid enough to use a coupon I had printed out which entitled me to a $25 gift card with a new prescription.

Might as well get something out of my ordeal, eh?

Then, I took Rooster home and attended a soccer board meeting.

Now I’m home, a Loritab is working its way into my system, and I’m settling down.

I’ve gotta say that there is a huge lesson that I’m taking away from the day.

Never let fear stop you from doing what you need to do.

I’ve been reading a number of Christian blogs lately, and one theme that has run through them has been fear.  This is something I struggle with in several areas of my life.  My head tells me one thing, but I let my emotions rule.  I just can’t do this anymore.

I feel so good right now, except for the pain from two holes in my mouth where bone previously existed.

I’m praising God for a knowledgeable dentist (how many regular dentists will readily extract wisdom teeth and cancel other appointments because your’s took so long)?

I am grateful for a supportive family and friends willing to drive me home from soccer meetings because the med instructions say, “Do not drive.”

Wanna know what else I’m thankful for?

Sweet iced tea.

Tea has healing qualities that are perfect for tooth extractions.

So yeah.  I’m thankful.

And not afraid of the dentist any more.

A Gift for Francis

Every once in awhile someone touches your life in a really special way.

So special, in fact, that you decide to do a little something to let them know how you feel.

Last winter, I spent a couple of weeks subbing for one English teacher.  I was still a little new at subbing, so I was very nervous.

My first period class had quite a number of characters.  However, it didn’t take long for one student to stand out among the others.  She taught me the “ropes” of how her regular teacher ran the class.  What a huge help!

This student was bright and had the personality to match.

We instantly bonded.

In the months since that first meeting, “Francis” and I have run into each other many times.  She’s always excited when she sees me.  Can I tell you just how good this makes me feel?

Last spring, she ooohhhed and ahhhhhed over the Shetland Shorty I had just finished and was happily wearing that day.  She excitedly asked me to make her one.  I readily said yes and told her that I would have her pick out the yarn.

Well, I never quite forgot my promise, but I’ll admit that I kind of hoped that she would.

Ugh…so bad, eh?

I don’t know why, but the thought of double yarn overs and k2tog’s just didn’t thrill me.

A few weeks ago, Francis and I ran into each other in the library.  The conversation went like this…

“Hi Mrs. AuburnChick!  Guess what I did yesterday?”

“Hi Francis.  I’m scared to ask, but what did you do?”

“I bought your Christmas present!” she proudly declared.

Oh boy.

“You did not,” I said.

“Yep!  I can’t wait to give it to you!” she said, and smiled broadly.

Oh boy, I thought to myself.

We finished our conversation, and off I went.

Enter in the cruise.

Do you remember the pictures of my knitting in front of the pool and ocean?  That was the Shetland Shorty I cast on…Francis’ gift from me.

Last night, I stayed up until 1:30am, working feverishly to finish it.  This is our last week of school before Christmas vacation, and I knew I wanted to gift it before we left.

Here’s how it turned out (that’s me modeling)…

I used 180g (1.8 skeins) of Southwest Trading Company’s Bamboo (colorway is black)…

I saw Francis today, and we chatted…

“Are you going to be in the library before school tomorrow?” I asked.

“Yes, why?” she asked, and then understanding crossed her face.

“Oh….” she said.  “Do you like blue and purple,” she asked, “Cause I saw you wearing a blue jacket one day,” she continued.

“Blue is one of my favorite colors,” I assured her.

“Good, cause I made you something,” she said.

Do you know that my eyes misted over at that last comment.  I told her that her making me something would make the gift even more special.

When I came home after school, I eagerly wrapped the shrug.  Because of some other things we talked about, I felt prompted to include another item…

This is a Bible I’ve had for a few years.  It has commentaries written by Max Lucado.

Francis is a smart girl, and she loves to read.  I’m hoping she’ll enjoy Max’s style of writing as much as I do.

I’m also hoping that she will read this Bible.  She does not come from a Christian upbringing…the total opposite, in fact.  However, she’s at a point in her life where she has a Christian woman (someone besides me) mentoring her on a daily basis.

One thing that struck me from our conversation was how she assured me that this woman, “…is a real Christian.  She doesn’t just say what she believes.  She lives it,” Francis told me.

Wow.

Powerful.

I’m praying that the words from this Bible literally jump out and grab hold of her heart.  Actually, she’s going to have to be the one who takes hold of God’s Word, but still…you know what I’m saying.

To say I’m excited about this gift-giving exchange tomorrow is one HUGE understatement…

I’m really going to miss Francis next year (she’ll be graduating in June).  But I know that God is working in her life.  I’m so thankful for His prompt, which led me to put together this gift for a very special girl.

Thankful – Part 2

I am thankful for a each sunset.

Every time I see one, I am reminded that the end of the day is near and rest is close at hand.

The colors soothe my soul, and the arrangement of the clouds playing peek-a-boo in between the rays of fading sunlight make me catch my breath every time I see them.

God is truly revealed in nature, and I am always in awe of His creativity and beauty.

Flash Forward

Have you watched the television show Flash Forward?

The premise is that the world’s population experiences a loss of consciousness, during which each person sees a few seconds of their lives a few months into the future.

The show’s lead characters spend each episode investigating the cause of this event and, in the process, discover how their lives intermingle with others’.

One man doesn’t see anything in his “flash forward.”  He soon learns that on a certain date, he will be murdered.

Another man, on the verge of ending his life when the flash forward occurs, sees something that gives him hope and purpose.  Viewers don’t know exactly what he’s seen yet, but one can surmise that it is good.

A new twist was recently introduced when one of the lead characters decided to change the future by committing suicide.  It is his hope that he will spare the life of an innocent woman.

I’ve been mulling over the concept of this show and how it relates to our spiritual lives.

What if we could see into our futures?  What would they look like?

Would we see darkness or light?

I realize that these are fictional characters, but I see parallels between their lives and ours’.

Nearly all of the TV characters have a dark past or are living with shame in some form.  They long to change the outcome of their lives.

As “real” people, we desire the same things…freedom from the weights that tie us down and the desire to change bad decisions to right the wrongs we’ve done.

And yet, just as I think the characters on the show will come up short, so too do we.

However, we “real” people have a hope that no fictional character will ever have…that of a Savior…an amazing generous God.

Accepting His redemptive work on the cross won’t undo the mistakes in our lives, but it will put us on a new path.  This is a path that is not trouble-free, unfortunately.  But when we walk with God, we can be assured that we are not alone.

God could have left us floundering, but He changed our destiny (for sin demands payment) and intervened personally in our lives to change the outcome. All we have to do is recognize our need for Him and accept His gift of salvation.

I hope you’ll take a moment to “Flash Forward” to the end of your own life.  What will you see as things stand right now?  What will you do to change it?

Indescribable

Sunday mornings spent at church provide some of the most uplifting moments of my week.

I find myself drawn closer to the Lord through worship music.

Music soothes my soul, while the words remind me of God’s grace and love for me.

This morning, we sang Chris Tomlin’s Indescribable.

The words, which I am posting below the video, describe how vast God’s love and presence is.

I have often spoken with people who don’t believe in God because they can’t see Him.

My response?

Have you ever seen the wind?

No, but you’ve felt its presence as it blows across your face, and you’ve seen its ripple affect as it floats across water.  You’ve witnessed its power during hurricanes and tornadoes.

Such it is with God.

Though you may not see Him in the form of a person, He is present.

I am sure that God knew that we humans would doubt His existence, and so He makes Himself seen in nature.

It is His hand that paints the spots on each leopard, decorates the landscape with fall colors, and puts a song of praise in every creatures’ lungs.

That is why I am overcome with gratefulness when I hear this song…

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation’s revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Inside the Ring – With God

Hulk Hogan was on the Today Show this morning, and I prepped myself to half-listen while I did other stuff in the house.

He was there to promote his new book, My Life Outside the Ring.

Now, I’m not a wrestling fan, and I can’t say that I know the man personally, but you’d have to be from Mars to not have heard about his troubles in recent years…the breakup of his marriage, his son’s jail term for his involvement in a car accident, and estrangement from his daughter.

As I listened, I thought, “Yada, yada, yada.”

I’m sorry if this sounds uncaring, but it is so typical of Hollywood stars.

What caught my attention, though, was when Hulk Hogan recounted how Laila Ali, daughter of Mohammed Ali and Hulk’s co-host on American Gladiators, called him and invited him to attend her church.

Say what?

I was surprised for several reasons:

A.  She invited him to church.
B.  He went.
C.  He talked about it on national TV.

He talked about how he learned that joy comes from within, and that it was the Spirit of Christ living in his heart that helped him change his life.

I have a problem with his first statement because it is very New-Agey.  The purest form of joy comes from a gratefulness of what the Lord has done from us…redeeming us from the punishment of hell, not from any “power” within us.

Yet, I also found myself happy that he seems to be going in the right direction…turning toward God rather than away.

He also mentioned that his son is doing well…”walking with Christ.”

When faced with trials, many people turn away from God, seeking self-reliance and other “fixes.”

Hulk Hogan was led in a different direction…the RIGHT direction.

He has a long way to go, and I pray that he will study and pray and that God will illuminate Hulk’s heart to bring a true understanding of what redemption is.

I don’t know…maybe he does understand.  That’s not for me to decide, for only God knows the heart.

The important thing is that Hulk Hogan is in the ring with the Lord now.  They’re tag-teaming, and no opponent will be able to stand against him with God on his side!

Frustrated But Still Trusting

Ugh.

I’m frustrated.

Today I had an interview for an English teaching position.  It was at a different high school from the one Chicky and Rooster attend, but hey, it was an INTERVIEW!  I was psyched!

I dressed the part and got nervous when I went in.  The principal and another teacher were conducting it.

They quickly put me at ease, and I answered all of their questions.

As the interview progressed, I grew confident.  They seemed to like my answers, made a lot of comments, and I left feeling very good about the experience.

Well, I just got a phone call.

The job was filled with another applicant.

Sigh…

Would it be bad to say I’m disappointed?

I honestly thought I had a shot at this one.

I thought I answered all of the questions correctly.  I answered from my heart…that’s all I know.

The feedback I received from them made me believe I stood an honest chance.

Most people would wallow in self-pity, though, and I’m choosing not to do that.

I think I’ll allow myself a moment and treat myself to some kind of chocolaty-caramely delight (I’m making up words, but I’m not officially an English teacher yet).

And then I’ll go back to job-hunting…continuing to trust the Lord.

His plans for me are perfect.  I know He will use this experience to bring glory to His name.

Dancing for God

Something has been bugging me for almost a week, and I finally decided to blog about it.

I really enjoy watching So You Think You Can Dance.  Over the last five years, I have developed a keen appreciation for many styles of dance…especially contemporary, which allows dancers to vividly express their deepest emotions.

Last week’s episode featured Thomas Hamilton’s audition…

Isn’t he a fabulous dancer?

So, why am I upset, you might wonder.

Well, quite frankly, I was dismayed at Nigel’s response to the way Thomas worshipped God through his dance.  Nigel went so far as to suppose himself an expert at what audiences would be turned off by.

I have always enjoyed Nigel’s comments.  His sarcasm makes me laugh, and I give him a lot of credit for his knowledge of dance.

However, his words really ruffled my feathers, and my opinion of him is much lower now.

For someone who embraces all forms of dance, Nigel showed how close-minded he can be toward religion.

As an avid viewer, I found Thomas’ dance moving, sincere, and – most of all – heartfelt.

Thomas danced a dance of gratitude for THE God (not a “higher power”) who had delivered him from a wretched life.

I would be more likely to watch and vote for a dancer like this than one who gyrates for no reason at all except to see his or her body jiggle in certain directions.

Confidence

Today, while watching my favorite morning news show, I listened as Megan Fox described her insecurities to Matt Lauer.

Megan starred in both Transformers movies (the second of which I loathed).

She spoke about how hard it is trying to make people happy and how living in Hollywood is like being in high school.  You’re always judged by others, and it’s impossible to please everyone.

She’s obviously young and has much to learn.

Why is it that we waste so much time and effort seeking the approval of others when, in fact, there is only One person we should desire to please?

Honoring God with our thoughts and actions should be our only aim in life.

Doing so takes our focus off of ourselves.

Self confidence built on worldly accolades is fleeting.  That which comes from the Lord is solid and can withstand the ever-changing tide of public opinion or the latest movie review.

Praise the Lord!

Chicky Hosts a Sleepover

Ok, ok…I know what you’re thinking.

She’s a teenager.  This isn’t exactly earth-shattering news.

However, what might surprise you is that she and a friend hosted a sleepover for the 9th grade girls in the youth group.

Yep.

Chicky thought of this all on her own.

Our church’s youth minister picks up middle schoolers from school on Wednesday afternoons and takes them back to the church, where they get to spend a couple of extra hours socializing…playing games and talking it up before the regular youth group activities.

Last year, Chicky mentored a group of eighth grade girls, and she moved up with them this year.

Chicky and her friend took the girls to a hibatchi restaurant.  Afterward, they went back to Chicky’s friend’s house for a fun evening.

The neat thing about this is that it wasn’t an even sponsored by the church.

In fact, this was Chicky’s first free weekend in a month, and she’ll be busy every weekend for the next several weeks.

Chicky met me at church this morning, and I’m telling you…she had a glow on her face.

Maybe it was just me, or maybe it’s the fact that she’s growing up.

Or, it could just be that God is using her…growing her as she serves Him.

Pretty cool, don’t ‘ya think?