A couple of days ago, I shared how I’d had a rough day.
I had become quite angry.
Later in the afternoon, I reflected on the day, and I grew ashamed.
During my angry rants to a couple of trusted friends, I used language unbecoming to a lady.
Yes, I did.
While I don’t get super angry very often, when I do, I lose control of my mouth.
This shames me greatly to admit, but I’m an honest person, and so much of my blog is about baring my heart. It’s how I grow.
This might surprise you, but it was the Mr. who actually held me to task.
As I shared about my day, including the cussing part, he shook his head and told me there had been no need for that.
You know what?
He was right.
I texted both of my friends and asked them to forgive me.
One of my friends told me not to worry…that they were just words.
I texted her it was important to me…that words define us.
You can tell a lot about a person by how he/she speaks.
Oh yeah. I’m feeling worse and worse as I type this.
Sigh.
As I showered that night, I asked the Lord to forgive me.
One would think that after coming off of the juice fast, I would be more self controlled.
Apparently my focus had not been on my mouth; however, I did gain clarity.
I need to be constantly on my guard against the sin that lives in my heart and threatens to rear its ugly head when I’m not looking, and I need to remember that my words define who I am.
I pray that I learn to speak softly and only in a way that honors God.
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Oh man.. you just made me strongly aware of my words…
I’ve learned lately, when something bad happens & I want to let out a string of unpleasantries, I just go “YEAHHHH” … don’t ask me why… Ricky thinks its hilarious…
whatever works – right 🙂
I am sorry that you had a bad day, bad enough to bring you to bad words. That happens to me, too, and like you, it makes me feel even worse because I know I’ve let Him down and I’ve let myself down for letting the situation have so much power over me.
Like my husband is fond of saying, you can’t unring a bell. All you can do is apologize (which you’ve done) and go forward. You can do it!